Alone-With-My-Thoughts

Not my typical blog. Please don’t mind me. You are free to scroll past my observations as I put pen to paper (so to speak).

This is more than a political blog. This does not have ANYTHING to do with a particular party so if you choose to continue, please know that these are only “personal” experiences, they come from all sides and they are merely observations from my standpoint. This is coming from a place of true grit.

I would like to say that in my publishing this, it would be the demise of evil or the changing of hearts and minds but, I’m skeptical to say the least. If it reaches just one person and makes a difference in a positive way, then I am doing my calling.

I am aware that this will really only be received by myself and maybe a select few and I’m alright with that. I need a place to be free to say what’s on my heart and continually running rampant in my mind. These things come from a place of concern.

If you continue on reading from here, thank you for opening your heart and mind and sharing your own thoughts and concerns. I’m not always right. I don’t claim to have an Oxford or Harvard IQ but again, these are my thoughts and observations and they matter, even if to noone but myself and God.

In my life on earth, I’ve traveled a different path than the “typical” every day American traditional way of life. I’ve learned that goals are important and should be taught to the younger generations. Due to lack of that grounding, I’ve had many struggles and heartaches. I have also had much grace and many victories. I have continued thru all of the adversities with a love for people, no matter what their walk of life may look like. Through my own grace and victories, both have given me the strength to continue to find myself and my purpose in life. I would like to say that I have always handled things the way Jesus would have but unfortunately, that is not the case. I do try to make amends in times of realization and/or conviction and I have come to accept that is all I can do.

I believe that so much changes in a person within a ten year period that we are left wondering where has the time gone, look at our growth and who was that person from years past.

In my younger life, (now I sound like my own Grandma), it was customary, or at least that’s what was instilled within me, that life is hard, work harder and staying at a job shows a sign of loyalty and is most honorable. Those values and guidance were instrumental in leading me to my current job. This job and career path is one that I never wanted to be in. I feel it was God’s way of telling me, he knew best and what he had planned is far beyond anything I could have imagined.  You see, working with attorneys is something that I never wanted to do let alone working in the governmental sector. In my almost 25 years here, the amount of knowledge that I have obtained is overwhelming. Again, I am not talking about an IQ. I’m talking “real” life experiences. Keep in mind, not all attorneys and politicians are bad, however my experiences have taught me that everyone has a price, everyone has an agenda, noone is a true friend and if you try to move beyond any agenda, you don’t fit in. There is a thing called placement. Know your place and keep the peace so to speak.

Personal attacks are going to happen. You don’t speak politically correct, you speak your truths, your dress code isn’t what one believes it should be even if it adheres to a recorded dress code, your last name isn’t the right one…or “is” the right one, your friends aren’t of the privileged few, you think logically instead of systematically, you see the patterns here right? These are only a few of observations that I have encountered.

Each individual aligns with their own party boss. Now keep in mind, the area where I work, there are a couple of political bosses in each party.

As a person who has chosen to raise a family, go to work, do my best to live by my Christian values, vote and stay out of politics, it has for the most part, provided me with a sense of peace.  As I’m nearing the end of my career and the option to run for an office was presented to me, it has opened my eyes to what others have been screaming for years and that’s “corruption”. I choose to look at the “corruption” as sometimes nothing more than agendas however, it is also very prevalent criminally, depending upon whom you align with.

I have questioned the Christian values of those who run and serve in various areas of the political regime. Although I do believe there is no such thing as a perfect Christian, I also believe that we are to treat others how we want to be treated. For me, respect is earned but loyalty is a must. I think I’ve done a fair enough job at earning that respect but finding the loyalty in a political world leaves you desolate. In the political arena in my area, I find that “we the people” is simply a metaphor that is often tossed to the wayside for power and the all mighty monetary value. To actually talk to constituents outside of just the election years is something that I feel some do not take seriously.

If we as a country cannot put aside our disagreements and come together as our founding fathers did, we will surely fall.

Sometimes it’s not about being right, but it’s always about doing right. Being seen and heard is the beginning of unity. Agreeing to disagree is the most mature way to handle any conflict that in reality has no real substance. I remember years ago reading an article from a psychiatrist and he said “think about the thing you’re arguing over. Look one year from now. Will the thing you’re fighting over be that one thing that will make or break the situation? Will it lose it’s importance in a year?” Stop and think about that. Is it worth fighting over spilled milk when you’re lactose intolerant? Now that last part was just my own little rendition to throw some humor into this drab article.

I’m finding peace in a time where change is happening in a whirlwind effect. I make changes where I can. Accept things I cannot change and love beyond all.

What can you do differently? Where do you see the world in the next ten years? Where do you see yourself in ten years? Have you done all that you could do to find peace? I hope so because above all else, finding peace is something that you do for yourself but all those around you benefit as well. Blessings